Life Support

how could i forget
the way you looked at me then?
happy for the happiness that brought you fear

and then when the fears actualized,
how,
in the hospital beside me,
allsixfeetfourinchesofyou
was smashed into the chair
where you sat for hours
stroking my hair
and trying to pull the sadness out of me

"I have never loved you more"

and standing and demanding
that they care as much as you did.

And in the days to follow
your needs went unremembered,
so that you could eat my tears
and bring me flowers
and promise all I'd ever want
would arrive
"on a silver platter"
if I just said the word.

In the evening I reflect on it.
How
Your love
was
My Only Oxygen
for days.