i must admit,
i enjoyed it less,
dizzy in my head from making sure you did.
Dr.P says i'm transferring

taking all that doesn't belong to me
and swallowing it backwards
 but I can't help it,

it was born in me this way(
&
that Huge time when
mymotherleftmyfathersad,
                           it was etched there
f o r e v e r 
)

,the need to make
everyone Else
better 
&
First,

or tumble apart,
like a rolling spool
            too fast
                 for
                    catching